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| its 430 in the morning, mypace sucks, and no one uses this crap so i dont have to worry about anyone reading this.
im sitting here in my boxers, i cant sleep, and theres never anything good on tv. this summer sucks, its made me realize how big of a loser i really am, and made me realize all the friends i dont have. man i need a shower haha. hp show tommorow*cough* tonight and the night after. going to both, nothing better to do, prolly gonna be some chicks there, maybe haha. i noticed that at the top of my page it says your instead of you and that no one ever told me about it in any of the comments i have. id change it but its xanga and ive been using myspace in which case i dont know how. i notice that i talked about how i was quiting HAHA yeah right i wasnt even trying, cause yeah, i remember and stuff. well now i am quiting and im doing a good job i might have drag or two off a cigg thats already lit by one of the boys, but thats rare. money cant by happiness, should end with, just joking. GOD im coming to terms with the fact that i used to be an emo kid, haha wtf, whe the hell wants to be an emo kid, well obviously i did. pathetic. if i could go back in time, id go back and bitch slap myself across the room haha. yeah im done, im gonna go to sleep or something.
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| wow, look at all this CRAP! i was such a little faggot back then, two years. i talked about brittany in like every two sentences. wtf was the matter with me back then.
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| So here I am sitting around 1 in the morning. Slept after I got home. I
missed the bus cause I waited for Brittany too long but I got to stay
after and hang out with her for about an hour cause she didn't have
cheerleading. Ari gave me a ride home thanks Ari, she is grounded for
18 more days, sad, almost as sad as that time Ryan died. haha. Last
Saturday I went to Brittany's house and talked with her parents, I
wasn't nervous really just expecting to get yelled at something for the
past stuff that happened. Well her parents are nice and I think I'm on
a thicker chunk of ice than before haha. We all went out to eat at
Logan's, it was me, Brittany, Alisha, Katie, Sean, and Brittany's
parents and brother. Well some stuff went down cause I didn't want
Brittany hanging out with Steph like wherever they could get in
trouble, and Steph blew it way out of porportion and said she wouldn't
even talk to Brittany anymore. Oh well, I didn't have a problem with
Steph or Katie until they said I had a control issue, hah, I ask
Brittany to do one thing and I have a control issue and Brittany has
asked a lot of me and I've quit it all, besides its for her own good
not hanging out with Steph especially since Steph was living there for
like 2 days and she had already got Brittany and Katie high, I can't
tell Katie not to hang out with Steph or even ask but Brittany's mom is
talking to her mom, which I don't want cause Katie's mom will freak and
she prolly won't be alowed to hang out with Brittany. Well it doesn't
matter now cause Brittany's mom found out like I told Brittany she
would and now she's not even alowed to look at Steph. Good news
Brittany's not in trouble cause she told the truth but she's not alowed
outside after dark now so that means less time to hang out with her
whenever I go over there. JV game tomm...well actually later on today,
guess I'm gonna stay after and go. I think Friday night there is the
Fall Festival at the middle school and I'm going there with Brittany
and I think Alisha is going too, yea she is cause she asked Brittany to
go. Saturday if everything works out and I'm alowed to go and Brittany
is alowed to go we are going to the movies with Josh and Jacquie and
Ray is prolly tagging along too. Ciggaretes are almost done with,
usually one a day now and sometime two are three if I'm in a real
shitty mood but then the next few days I won't have any. Me and Dom
weren't friends for awhile there cause he didn't respect my decision to
quit the drinking and pot, so I told him to fuck off basically, but he
apologized in his weird crazy Dom kinda way after school today. Nothing
else really cept today went by really fast which was good, oh and I got
late class with Whitt for 3rd period which is wayyyy better than Mr.
Stephens class. I'm Out.
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| Today was alright, stayed home, played video games, down to 2 ciggs a
day, I hope by the time my birthday hits I've reached my goal of
quiting. Nothing else really.
Later
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| Bored sitting in my room. Homecoming stuff this weekend, I think I'm gonna end up going. Nothing else really, Ray and Dana prolly coming over this weekend. Wow there is really nothing else going on, I don't even know why I bothered updating. later
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